🤵 Why I Avoid Buying Expensive Clothes and Lesson That I've Learned.

Part of growing is to recognize what you’ve learned from your mistake. I can’t say if that’s what we called – Adulting. I had numerous mistakes that I’ve done (real talk); some of them I regret and most of them I was thankful dahil nagiging nagamit ko naman yun to move forward.

Let me share you this experience of mine that – you guys, same with my age demographic will surely relate.

When I graduated in college, isa lang ang gusto ko, even during my childhood kasi nga laki ako sa hirap and all I want was – when I am already financial capable ay bibili talaga ako ng mga magagandang damit, sapatos, brief na may pangalan sa garter kasi astig siya ipakita kapag nakataas ang tshirt at nakalawlaw ang pantaloon. Diyos ko naman, with those brand na Hanford dati, sikat na sikat ka at parang ang hot mo pag meron ka non.

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After ko makuha ang diploma, I started to work in a bank pero diko ako tumagal dahil ang baba ang sahod. I was earning minimum, seemingly, I can only eat and not even buy prepaid load for my phone kaya I gave up my job kahit inline sya sa napag-aralan ko. And joined this industry kung saan ang application at part of selection process ay walang math exam kundi you just keep talking in English – CALL CENTER- at bongga ang kaperahan.

I started then earning and I was overwhelmed the way how money went into my life. Malapit na ako sa pinapangarap kung mamahalin damit at gamit. At dahil nga sa una kung call center na napasokan eh SALES ACCOUNT, mahirap siya na tila ba zombie ka pag kaout mo, pero naman ang kitaan naman , para ka lang nag deal ng drugs sa hirap pero ang bilis.

Buying two pairs of Havainas at SM North EDSA

Namakyaw ng Converse sa warehouse sale.

Installment sa Sofie sa kasama sa work.

Bumili pa ng new batch,

Undeniably, I bought things that I’ve wanted since then. Kung bibili ako ng hoodie na LEE na tig 5k, pero dahil takot maubusan ng design dahil daw sale , aba naman bumili ako ng lima. Pagpasok sa work, paiba iba ang jacket at bawat isa na ka work mo, pagandahan ng jacket talaga. Bibili ako ng jeans, hindi isa ung lima , bibili ng sapatapos dapat may rubber, leather, at iba pa. That time nag rerent pa ako ng apartment sa may Pasay at tila ba na everytime nalalaman ko ang orocan ko na plasic na damitan, there is something inside me na napupuno din. Those were my 23^rd -27^th, diba? Ganon katagal ang bisyo nayun. Aba! May pa-havianas pa ang pota, eh samantalang nung grade 2 ako, ramboo na tsinelas lang masaya na ako ,na halos aabot ng grade 5 matibay pa din.

Kung itotal ko ang nagatos ko, that was like a huge a amount na kaya na siguro ako mag tayo ng piggery sa probinsya pero dahil nga inuna ko ang pangarap ko nung bata ako na wala ako, so dahil may work na na at sumasahod, pwede ko na bilhin ang gusto ko.

“Tansyong! Ang ganda naman ng jacket mo, ang kapal”

“Tansyong saan mo nabili sapatos mo?”

“Tansyong , ganda naman ng damit mo, anong brand?”

Those are the words that I kept on hearing – and this made my dopamine increases, which leads me to become an impulsive buyer. Di pa nagtapos sa pag-papaempress sa workplace, pinost ko pa sa social media. And those likes, damn man, inaabangan ko kung ilan na at sino ang naglike – pod pod ang cellphone sa kaka refresh.

#FeelingBlessed #Thankful #ILoveMyLife, t@ngina naman ! Oo, I admit I did it, it was so addictive, seems like you’re taking drugs na hinahanap hanap mo every time na magamit mo na. Every day iniisip ko na ano kaya ang i-post ko, ganern! Yes friend, matagal na ako famewhore sa social media, hindi pa uso ang facebook, meron na ako Friendster, multiply at tumblr. At di sa pagmamayabang 8 years na ako nagsusulat sa blog ko.

But life is not all always abundant. There are times times ang account sa call center nawawala, and lilipat ka naman sa ibang call center and worst thing mas mababa na ang offer at wala ka magawa dahil papatosin mo talaga dahil sa wala ako na-ipon. Pag ka sign ng contract up to na regular na ako, diko pa padin na adjust ang lifestyle ko. SPELL DEFECIT, ganun, mas mataas pa gastos ko kesa sa earning. Hanggang sa dumating ako sa point na kahit anong gawin ko na overtime, hirap ako. And started to feel down, parang worthless and that made me feel so invaluable.

But I need to learn from my mistake. Yeah, meron sa ECONOMICS na tumataas din ang gastos in proportion to the income equals to a quality life. But my life was not as quality as I thought; it was only satisfying what the society might positively say to me. I was looking for self-validation from the people around me, and I use the materials things to cover my outside façade and ignored of nurturing my inside being.

I am not saying that buying things for yourself is bad, it is good actually because it made you realize na oh , kayak o pala bilhin ko but WEARING CHEAP CLOTHES DOESN’T MEAN YOU’RE BROKE, REMEMBER, YOU HAVE FAMILY TO FEED AND NOT A COMMUNITY TO IMPRESS.

MADAMING SALAMAT SA INYO, TANDAAN NIYO MGA TANSYONG LOVERS WHO KEPT FOLLOWING ME. MAHAL NA MAHAL KO KAYO.